what is in a year?

it's that in between time.  that week between Christmas and New Years.  the middle of the week that finishes one year and starts another.  i'm stuck between reflection and planning.  review and agenda, looking back and looking ahead.

what is in a year?

this was a big year on the outside.
i live here now.  these are the images of my days.

my boys with some other boys

drive home in the rain

the babies home

drying clothes on the lawn

side of the road fruit market

tea fields on route to jinja

so different than the year before.  wonderfully different.  wonderful in different ways.

but what about on the inside?
has there been any transformation? 
is my clackity clack the same?  where are my feet taking me?  what do i dream about?  am i loving better? caring more? being generous, and present, and still?  do i laugh more? am i dancing with my kids and singing in the car and spreading joy? am i letting things go that should be forgotten?  am i clinging to those things that i know are treasures?

what is in a year?  or a week? or a day?
what is in a moment?
good night.