it's late

today was annoying.  it just was.  life seemed like it was getting lost in the living.  because the living takes longer here- even the basics.  running an errand takes 4 stops instead of 1, the traffic that should take 20 minutes takes 40.  the lady with a rigid, painful belly is delayed all morning getting to the hospital because the clinic cashier hasn't arrived with the key to get money for her transportation.  these things make me want to have a george banks moment from 'father of the bride' when he just loses it because of the systems- or maybe here, the lack of systems.   

but the lavender/ camomile tea is helping. so is being still, being quiet and just sitting down. 
what usually helps most is to think of what i have to be thankful for- and there is so much.
the top three of the day are:
- kampala has an apple computer store and i was actually able to get my charger fixed,  in less than 24 hours- remarkable
- the lady with the Christmas tree from yesterday, the one who thought i was crazy, she actually called me back, saved the tree for me, and today we chopped it down and brought it home (sorry to my faithful tree loving friends, but i can't do fake, at least not yet).
- and for these guys- who make me laugh.

Let these be your desires

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself
But if your love and must needs have desires,
Let these be your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook
That sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart
And give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer
For the beloved in your heart
And a song of praise be upon your lips.


Khalil Gibran