goodnight

it's almost midnight.  these days we stay up late.  tonight i don't even want to go to bed- because i want to avoid tomorrow, because tomorrow mike leaves in the morning.
i'm listening to music.  i'm so thankful for the poetry of it and the sounds and soul of it.  it makes me so happy and gets me so excited about life and what life brings.

i'm beginning to get ready for africa- in my heart.

i still get excited about all the different moments in the day.  the minutes in the bed when the world is still and i hear the feet of two boys running up the stairs- each day - like it's christmas- like i'm a present- that joy is unreal, but so real.  and then that cup of coffee, the smell and routine of it. the picking up moments after school- hearing about the day, the little dramas, identifying the creatures in their drawings.  and i love the evening when mike comes home- like christmas for me.  and dinner, sometimes a glass of wine, and then the time after they go to bed- when i remember the other parts of me- of us- of life before we had 3 lives join ours. and i wish there were even more hours in the day and in the night- but then i realize there is thankfully, another day.  tomorrow.  so it goes around, and life is good that way.  and when it's bad- and you are glad to go to bed- there is still tomorrow - for a new chance to begin again.

so good night. sleep well.